| 17. My Choice Is it not the choosing that makes the life we live so intricate?
Are the options we have too endless to control?
Can we oversee the offers and their demands and their goals?
Can we oversee our own needs if we do not know
What it is we really want? Our minds, instead of our hearts
What we feel confuses our thoughts Security, an ancient quest
Standing alone, the ultimate test
Still we search for warmth in the materialized luxuries in life
The times have changed but we are still the same
Another choice 'cause we still don't know Let me see where I belong
Let me be a little part of it
Can I choose my way in life?
Can I dream, can I feel?
Could I know my choice? A choice without the illusion that luck is for sale
'cause I have all that money can buy A choice means freedom
And endless options
Can we survey that?
Can freedom be controlled?
The option's bitter
It leaves a part of you behind the borders of your choice Let me see where I belong
Let me be a little part of it
Can I choose my way in life?
Can I dream, can I feel?
Could I know my choice? Let me see where I belong
Let me be a little part of it
Can I choose my way in life?
Can I dream, can I feel?
Could I know my choice? 18. Beneath Bewildered by silence
Stuck by its questions and lucid ways to make us aware
I did not know how cruel that could be
That so many cases will never be solved
That so many stories will never be told
I did not know how cruel that could be Fighting a war that rages inside
The world can't see the hate that burns in there
How can we face what lies beneath,
If we just fear and don't fight back? How many questions left unanswered?
How many tears and inner strength shall we need?
How many times can we encounter this again and again?
How many things exist that blind us?
How many forms of brutal violence can we see?
How many images of pain will make us numb
So hard, so cruel, we fail to see, we fail to feel?
So afraid, even without the courage of despair? Fighting a war that rages inside
The world can't see the hate that burns in there
How can we face what lies beneath,
If we just fear and don't fight back? Afraid of ourselves, arfaid to stand up
I did not know how cruel that could be We failed to see, we failed to feel
Still afraid, what if you love someone?
What if this happened to your loved ones?
What would you do if you were there at that time?
What makes you act like nothing happened?
Nothing's wrong, you're doing fine?
What makes you think you are immune to this?
What drove us so far to the edge of tolerance?
If judging and accusing is so easy, then why
Why still? Fighting a war that rages inside
The world can't see the hate that burns in there
How can we face what lies beneath,
If we just fear and don't fight back? 19. Digital Deceit Come enter, here's my world
Closed off from pain and cold
Come enter, come inside
A secret place of light
'Cause in this world I'm rid of you
You can't get through So here I am, and I'm beautiful
And all my friends would say the same
So here I am, and you cannot deny
That I am someone you'd embrace
I am the queen, I'm pure and loved
By everyone Come enter, here's my code
Through the world wide wire you'll know me
The queen of her own world
My story, meet my life So now you see, there is another me
Not someone insecure and strange
My father's will in here, it doesn't mean a thing
And I don't fear his violent rage I am the queen, you know I'm loved
By everyone Come enter, here's my code
Through the world wide wire you'll know me
The queen of her own world Stop dreaming, and wake up
Your silly world is not what's real
This world of fake friends and computers
Digital deceit This cyber wall (this cyber wall)
Is built to break out or hold
The choice is yours (the choice is yours)
Will you dream or see what's real Oh... no, no more
Just let me be alone with myself
These conflicting thoughts increase my doubts I am the queen, I must be loved
This so-called 'wall' is there to protect
A life controlled by keys
Closed off from pain and cold 20. Two Sides Somehow everything's getting worse
My fight is just one of their struggles
And have I seen it all
Oh no, now their hate's reaching the top
And guess who's to blame
And guess who's responsible If pain is our line
The one that connects us in life
Should we hold on I only feel their shame when I'm near
Life should be more than this
Should be warmer than this
Cause there's more grief and pain, oh yes
There is more than what I caused
Things beyond me
And their eyes reflect things
They'll never say out loud If pain is our line,
The one that connects us in life
Should we hold on Our dreams, ambitions and passion
Our plans for the future, our combined goals
A life with status, respect and adoration
Our wishes and hope destroyed at once
Without those things to connect us
A life together is even worse than alone
We all need two sides of the story Two sides,one can become a reflection
Of the truth, a lie
You'll be judging soon
Two sides, they both have their emotions
Opinions and thoughts
On who's to blame on reality, can you tell If pain is our line
The one that connects us in life
Should we hold on 21. Sins Of Idealism Hello father, hello mother
There is so much I don't get
Please don't be mad at me
I will try harder
I'll really do the best I can That's not enough
You're the cause of my domestic captivity And I will close my eyes
And fantasize of a world that's not so cold That's how it will be, suffer the causes
Of my personal misery. I've sacrificed
My beauty, my freedom, my dreams
The independent me Hello father, hello mother
Don't blame me for things I didn't do
Yes, I will go now, and I'll be silent
Please stop your screaming, and love me! That's all you can see
Speak of love while
You've ruined what's meant to be And then I'll close my eyes
To fantasize of a world
Where I can be free
And free to be Sinner or righteous, the line is so thin
Can you condemn it?
Can you be the one to judge it all, or accuse
Yourself if the sentence is your life Hello father, hello mother
Forgive me for standing in your way
I just wanted someone
Who'd hold me and listen
Are these illusions, are they Only fantasies?
Imagine how my life would have been
I would still have
My beauty, my freedom, my dreams
The independent me Our course in life is a path we must take
Alone no one can choose what to do, only you
So the sins we commit are the struggles within
There's no judge to decide what is right
What is wrong Tell me, can you live in freedom
Knowing that your choice hurt someone? Once, we had a life, and now we have you
The saviour of love is a catastrophe
I'll leave you both
If I must give up my dreams
My chances aren't here with you
I won't be chained because of this The sins of all, the sinner in me
I follow my dreams, you call it blasphemy
If my ideals are sins
To me, they are the strength within
Then I shall stay a sinner! I can be free,and free to be
Sinner or righteous, the line is so thin
Can you condemn it?
Can you be the one to judge it all
Or accuse yourself, if the sentence is your life 22. Eccentric What do they see when they look at me?
Who are they to judge me
If they never spoke with me
Never looked without laughing
Never tried to see, see me I can't believe that it is only me
The person to hate
The only left out
I can't believe how they can be so mean
If they could feel
The brutal stings of their words
And the bitter cold when they laugh Once more I'm running
Running away, I must hide
Can't take anymore
A fight to free me
From an endless struggle with life
Running, tell me how far should I go
If they're all the same
This fight
I'm fighting my way through I don't really want to be like them
The way they behave
The way that they live
I don't really need someone
No people like that
Someone in a world with wars and respite
A world without the feeling I must be running
Running away, I must hide
Can't take anymore
A fight to free me
From an endless struggle with life
Running, tell me how far should I go
If they're all the same
This fight
I'm fighting my way through 23. Life's Vortex My mind is under an attack
Although no one sees
My past is pounding
In the back of my memories
It's always there to poison my mind
With all I do
Feelings I know so well seem to come back
As if nothing's ever changed Fear was one of the reasons to crawl away
Into a world I lost
I know the rules, I play the game
But somehow it always stays the same
In spite of my will, in spite of my hope
In spite of it all So for those who believe in this life
Spin right on this circle – must be round
Every turn has its vortex
You'll drown if nobody warns you
And shows you another circle of life Nothing will change
Nothing is done for the victim
I am forced to remain
Cause these days make you feel
And you are on your own Study, work hard,marry, reproduce
And become the perfect model
Can you stand the test of time if life
Is a vicious circle
Without the mirror of another path So for those who believe in this life
Spin right on the circle – must be round
Every turn has its vortex
You'll drown if nobody warns you
And shows you another circle of life 24. Blind Pain Everything keeps getting worse
The terror at home, the dread at school
I mustn't count on much support
I'm still locked out, it's up to me
How to face the teasing and the pain
Hate, one thing we have in common
Play your game Beat me, hurt me
A physical release for mental pain
Don't make me explode in your way This is a chain of torture
A line of pain
No other way to show how you feel
This is the rebel in her, the torment from him
The absence of help, the mothers care Rage, it burns all around us
Blind pain
So abuse is only weakness
It feels more like a cry of distress
An act of incapacity
Feel the threat
Feel the oppressed ambience
Of having no place to go
No one who'll take care of my salvation This is a chain of torture
A line of pain
No other way to show how you feel
This is the rebel in her, the torment from him
The absence of help, the mother's care Here comes the finel episode of terror and pain
Abuse and hope
Here comes the fight between us all
A fight between a love long gone
I'm to blame, but it's their own blind pain (Mother) Now look where you and your selfish ambitions have gotten us!
It's never been worse! You gotta work, work work, come back without
even noticing me or that ignorant kid of yours! You only think about
yourself.
(Father) I only think about myself, it's me again? You self-centered bitch!
You're the one complaining all the time, but when that kid freaks out, who's
supposed to take care of her, huh?! Besides, it's not my child! Wasn't it ours,
our little 'saviour' of a love we never had? A fucking...
(Mother) Yeah, there is no 'us' anymore, darling! Ever since she was born
and I was left at your apparment raising her, I think about all I ever dreamed
of because of 'our' decisions! We both should have made compromises,
but the only one who did was me!
(Father) Oh, there you go again! You feel awfully sorry for yourself; why
don't you take a look at my side of the story for once?
(Mother) Ah, yeah sure, 'your side'... well, excuse the fuck out of me for being
in your way! A child you never wanted, living in a smaller house than you've
ever dreamed of, and all the while I'm getting old and ugly, right?
You must really long for somebody young and fresh, or if this means already...
(Father) Enough!! Don't you dare accuse me of being unfaithful! That's
how you ruined my loyalty; I can't believe I once fell in love with a...
(Mother) Oh, neither can I, you bastard! Neither can I! And loyal? I dind't
know you're familiar with that word!
(Father) There's a lot you don't know, a lot you'll never understand!
We've lost contact, baby.
(Mother) Oh yeah, really? Well, that doesn't seem to bother you. Why don't
you just go on? Go, go! Drift off away on that little island of yours and don't
forget to drown on your way to a better life!!
(Father) Maybe I will, maybe I will! I'd rather drown than be locked up with
such a freaed up bith and a freaky daughter! I can't believe we're still
holding a conversation about something so stupid!!
(Mother) Fine, go! Just GO!! Drown! I hope it'll be slow and painful!
(Father) Shut your fucking mouth!
(Mother) Asshole... Asshole! 25. Being Everyone Who am I at night when my eyes are closed tight?
Who am I, and where; when eyes see far beyond?
Every border, every dream?
Every hidden memory?
Every nightmare, truth or dare, who do I see now? Look at me!
Tell me what you see
Are we? Just being everyone? Where am I; tell me what should go, what should stay
Where am I? Where am I? And where shall I go tonight?
Every night a different theme
Every time you're in a different dream
Am I me there?
What am I?
Who will I be now? Look at me!
Tell me what you see
Are we? Just being everyone?
Look at me!
Tell me what you see
Are we? Just being everyone? I cry, I fall
I love, I hate
I know many, though no face ever stays
I breathe, I fly
I kill, I die
Though there's nothing that I know
No one can recall where I have been or who I was Look at me!
Tell me what you see
Are we? Just being everyone?
Look at me!
Tell me what you see
Are we? Just being everyone? Look at me!
Tell me what you see
It's me! Being everyone! 26. Face Your Demons Jack in a box and here I am
Your favorite mirror and your only honest reflection, I'm your guide
I am you deepest fear, the one you'll always hear
I am the devil in disguise, I am your dreams I am the sneaky connection to your most devilish reflection
The scary imagination of the real you I represent what you deny
You're never scared, so why are you running away from the temptation of my words?
Oh, you don't know what I could do for you
Or I could put you through
And you don't really understand that only fear leads this game Face your demons
Hear that inner voice
It calls, it cries for you
Just listen well
I'm the one who'll tell terrifying, scary, dreadful tales You'd better listen
That's some free advice
So, what scares you the most?
Let me know, be a good host
I want to tell you how your fear looks and how to play the game Face your demons
Hear that inner voice
It calls, it cries for you
Just listen well
I'm the one who'll tell terrifying, scary, dreadful tales War is breaking loose, it cannot be stopped
Cars are racing by and you're getting crushed
Friends are dying slow with a lot of pain
You just fear it all Bleeding from a wound that you cannot see
And you're seeing things that can never be
God is not made up and he wants revenge
You just fear it all Fear! You just fear, you can only fear
Face your demons So did you know that all your memories
Color all you'll ever be in a dark and misty cloud that I am floating on
I'm still the voice that speaks inside your head
The demon under your bed
I'm the one who haunts your soul with devilish lust to fright Face your demons
Hear that inner voice
It calls, it cries for you
Just listen well
I'm the one who'll tell terrifying tales Face your demons
Hear that inner voice
It calls, it cries for you
Just listen well
I'm the one who'll tell terrifying, scary, dreadful tales 27. Taste The Day If you don't see
If you forget what you have
Not just what you can get
If you cannot embrace it, you will lose what gives you strength Holding on to life
Fortune lies within You can never love if you are not in love with life itself
If you cannot embrace that you will never find true strength Holding on to life
Passion within! Oh, feel the day
Can you remagine yourself?
Oh, taste the day
Will you remagine your life? Can you relish in your luck, can you?
Or overcome your pain?
Can you be happy? Oh, feel the day
Can you remagine yourself?
Oh, taste the day
Will you remagine your life? 28. Boundaries Are Open I see clearly all my dreams
(you can imagine your whole life)
I know chance is always near
(with a mind full of conceit)
Make my own reality
(do you even know the truth)
Just imagine Boundries are open Cause you cannot control this
(dreams keep slipping from my hands)
My reality differs from yours
(i must do just what i feel)
The power of imagination is strong
(keep trying, again and again)
So we only try to imagine Will the force be so strong it will control one's mind?
Will this power delude or widen the madness that renders blind?
So the frontiers of our conceit
Then will become indistinct to vanish in thin air Boundries are open
But don't believe it's real So does faith have roots in imagination?
Who is right in the grim and endless fight for revelation?
I cannot tell what's right or wrong
For we all dwell in imaginary borderland Boundries are open
But don't believe it's real 29. Come Come join your inner wonderland
A place of all you don't understand
Come join this labyrinth deep within
The place of all miracles of your mind Come join the magic, the power that you create
Come be aware it's an illusion you have made Come join the flow that guides you through a restless mind
Come join the flow that moves the night You've passed the gates now, the door to inner wonderland
You've passed the gates made to create the borders of your dream Come enter further, do you dare?
Come face the hell you daily bear
Come pass the borders of what's real
Come touch and see and feel Come join the flow that guides you through a restless mind
Come join the flow that moves the night Come join this flow
Come join us all, here within your mind
Come join the magic, your body is weightless
You roam and you are anyone you can be
Come join this flow
Come join us all, here beyond your mind As you enter this inner flow, your second part begins
And while the night embraces you, you deal with the day Come join the flow that guides you through a restless mind
Come join the flow that moves the night 30. Attendance Beauty and destruction
Pride and honour
Freedom, elimination
Speak out loud, hide Now enter, here is our dreamworld
View the splendid sides
You can always tell we never learned, we'll never learn Blindness and silence
No one dares
Action and reprisal
Raise your voice, die Now enter, here is our dreamworld
View the splendid sides
You can always tell we never learned, we'll never learn Now enter, here is our dreamworld
View the splendid sides
You can always tell we never learned, we never will Oh, how will the earth be
seen for the first time?
Oh, how will the earth feel
touched for the first time? Entwine and iconize
Passion ignites
Suspicion and betrayal
The voice of violence speaks again Now enter, here is our dreamworld
View the splendid sides
You can always tell we never learned, we'll never learn Now enter, here is our dreamworld
View the splendid sides
You can always tell we never learned, we never will 31. Live & Learn I'll be climbing another high mountain
I will climb and climb to see what lies far beyond all my restrictions
A glimpse of a better me I'll be diving another deep ocean
I will dive and dive to reach for what lies beyond my restrictions
A deeper me I know many doors are waiting for keys in life
Waiting for courage to learn what's kept hidden I'll be running another great distance
I will run and run to know what lies far beyond all my restrictions
To run into a faster me I'll be loving another great challenge
I will love and love to feel what lies deep within my inner chambers
Where's the key!? I know many doors are waiting for keys in life
Waiting for courage to learn what's kept hidden
I know many doors are waiting for keys in life
Waiting for courage to learn what's kept hidden Keep moving on
Live and learn, the future lies open
Keep going strong
Search for the key, to open the next door Now don't let words hold you back from dreaming
The future is yours and you're brave enough to choose your path
And to embrace all that comes to you
All you can bear
Hidden by dreams, hidden: So it seems
The challenge your fear
The courage is here, unlock! I know many doors are waiting for keys in life
Waiting for courage to learn what's kept hidden
I know many doors are waiting for keys in life
Waiting for courage to learn what's kept hidden 32. Strong I see your pain, I see it grow
slowly inside you
You cannot control it
The hurting's ruthless, you cannot win I see every smile you fake
Strong emotion, strong devotion to ignore the pain
to stand strong Day after day
To be there for us, always
To pretend there's nothing wrong
How you feel or how it feels
No words describe it
Your body feels like a stranger
We cannot stop it, we cannot win I see every smile you fake
Strong emotion, strong devotion to ignore the pain
to stand strong I see every smile you fake
Strong emotion, strong devotion to ignore the pain
to stand strong Every painful day
I'll be there for you, always
And together we will stand strong
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